forget everything you think you know about me

before sunset

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 03:17:44 GMT

"memory is a wonderful thing if you dont have to deal with the past"

"if you dont believe in any kind of magic or mystery youre basically as good as dead"

"you can never replace anyone because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details"

these are from the sequel to my favorite romantic movie before sunrise.

sigh.

36 hours in toronto

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:25:57 GMT

this about sums it up.

smiles.

work creeps

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Tue, 14 Oct 2008 03:06:01 GMT

"yah you need to take an appointment for like everything"
"even you?"
"im sorry...what?"
"you need to even take an appointment for you"
"yah theres a long waiting list for that kiddo."

he was like 16 i swear. geez.

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Tue, 01 Jan 2008 09:32:11 GMT

now i dont want to jinx it or anything.
but im pretty sure 2008 is going to rule.

encircle me, i need to be, taken down

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Sat, 27 Oct 2007 20:49:07 GMT

when you're all you've really got and you don't even recognize yourself.........

"those with a mental illness carry two burdens: the disease itself and the stigma around it"

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 23:11:44 GMT

Truth is, most of us don't understand mental illness, at least not in the way we understand broken bones or heart disease - even though mental-health problems such as anxiety and behavioural disorders, schizophrenia and depression affect 20 per cent of Canadians during their lifetime, and even though the World Health Organization predicts that, if steps are not taken to control mental illness, depression will overtake heart disease as the leading cause of disability by 2020.

http://www.canada.com/montrealgazette/news/arts/story.html?id=9c780aaa-61af-41a8-b3ad-79e9839bc024&p=1

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 01:17:21 GMT

i havent been this excited about life in a really really long time.

photo blog

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Mon, 17 Sep 2007 19:50:06 GMT

http://sachaleebear.blogspot.com/

the anchor

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Aug 2007 01:15:33 GMT

hold my breath
just a few more-
if you'd never stopped and smiled with your eyes
i might just be alright.

drowning in blue
as we dance in the sand,
soon beneath palm trees.

and even if the clouds never stay
ill pretend you wish them here.

you are everything that makes me feel like i am nothing at all.

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Sun, 04 Feb 2007 03:08:08 GMT

you cannot trust anyone in this world except yourself.
and sometimes even then.

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 Jan 2007 01:13:16 GMT

new years resolution 2007
(abbreviated version)

quit everyone and everything that makes me unhappy

njosnavelin

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Wed, 14 Dec 2005 01:42:45 GMT

uploaded these today.
in case you ever wondered what i did in photo class.

our weakness is the same, we need poison sometimes

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Tue, 26 Jul 2005 06:28:06 GMT

sometimes
sometimes i
sometimes i wonder
sometimes i wonder,
sometimes i wonder, i
sometimes i wonder, i really
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder,
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder, what
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder, what this
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder, what this is
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder, what this is all
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder, what this is all for
sometimes i wonder, i really wonder, what this is all for.

from a distance the fornication of fear and flames twinkles so pretty

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Thu, 16 Dec 2004 02:55:36 GMT

this my last entry before turning this thing into friends only...minus a few friends.

but first off.

id like to proclaim my utter dislike for loft and the super sketchy people that frequent it who wouldnt stop staring at me.

the main event lies in the fact that i did not appreciate hearing that a certain someone who i had been on alright terms with decided to be a total bitch and say something pretty low.

you always get what you want so im not surprised at the turn of events. i just kinda feel sorry for the other person involved. mostly cuz i have a feeling they're going to get hurt. and they don't deserve it.

im also pretty disappointed in another someone who hasnt really stuck up for me it seems...which surprises me the most since they should understand how i feel perfectly.

but as ive said before. people have a tendency to screw me over. so this isnt really a shock.

be glad i didnt write this whole thing yesterday...cuz it would of been pretty ugly.

i have a day off tomorrow. im glad. :)

i'm digging a hole. i'll shut out the world

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Wed, 15 Dec 2004 02:31:56 GMT

i freaking miss you like woah.

loft tonight. never been.

yah...i dunno. i just hate being ignored more than anything.

are we really happy with who we are right now

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Tue, 14 Dec 2004 18:17:23 GMT

i read this super inspirational article in my AP mag this morning.
cept whenever i get in those "i can do anything/posi" moods. they never last.

so this day is going to suck. i just know it.

la la la but i feel pretty so it shouldnt?!

ive got BPD. the more i read about it...the more im convinced its what i have.

& on another note.
my mom's buying me the complete works of william shakespeare for xmas and its prolly the bestest present im going to get this year :)

oh so all my lovin' go's

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Tue, 14 Dec 2004 03:36:47 GMT

i cant compete.

so i wont.

if this is all i get. then i guess i need to learn to live with it.

im waiting. im patiently anticipating. your arrival

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Mon, 13 Dec 2004 17:20:23 GMT

oh myspace.

how you sometimes provide me with the greatest entertainment ever.

HAHAHA

i love how i have nothing better to do at school then read comments.

oh man.

i want them to hate me. so you can love me on the sly

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Mon, 13 Dec 2004 01:54:56 GMT

im tired.

&i have to study.

i bought A DRESS today. i dont do that like ever. so why now? i dont even know. its pretty and makes me happy.

i hate how everytime the phone rings i get butterflies.

&how i really just feel like puking.

make the same mistake twice

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Sun, 12 Dec 2004 02:10:10 GMT

watch its going to be one of those nights where i decide not to go to jupiter because im tired and everyone is going to be there and tons of stuff is gonna happen and ill have missed it all and be depressed all week because i didnt force myself to go. but pretty much because i didnt go out at all.

busy week ahead. 2 days of school left. 29 hours of work. one day off altogether.

wow. sounds like funnnnn.

...
i miss you ducky.

a lot.

you're the reason why. they're always doubting of us twice

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Sat, 11 Dec 2004 03:04:07 GMT

i love how i'm just waiting for more drama.

but i guess for now i'll just be happy with everything.

:)

*SNOWSTORM!!!

YAY

everytime you close your eyes. lies.

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Thu, 09 Dec 2004 21:18:02 GMT

i had this really long rant to write. about 2 pages. i wrote it during one of my breaks.

but.

we're having an OC party tonight so i dont care anymore.

love rhymes with hideous car wreck

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Thu, 09 Dec 2004 14:56:55 GMT

wow i love not trying to cry at school.

its awesome.

and i dont know what im doing this for. trying to let it all go.

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Thu, 09 Dec 2004 02:22:19 GMT

i think i need to realize i cant control everything.

so as of right now.

i just dont care.

*but id just like to point out that i can always tell when people are lying.
so dont try pulling the curtain over my eyes.

even though sometimes the least you could do is lie.

so take me and break me. make me strong like you

coyotegirl86@hotmail.com — Wed, 08 Dec 2004 01:09:58 GMT

i keep editing this post cuz my emotions are changing about every 5 minutes.

screaming really loud into a pillow actually helps.

just.

UGH.